I don't know what to think

This is more of a statement than a question, but it's only in the last few years that I've realized I'm interested in regression... I always thought it was just diapers. I'm incredibly lucky in that my husband knows and is accepting of it. Not only that, but he has said on a few occasions that he's willing to try being a carer for me. The problem is with me. I don't know if I can do that with him. It seems like it would be so awkward. The other thing is I've never fully indulged this before even by myself. It will be hard enough to know how to go forward let alone having to "tell him what to do", as he says. Finally, I don't know that I can ask him to do that for me when I know it doesn't appeal to him; it would be simply because I like it. Taking him up on it would feel so selfish when the "daddy" role can involve so much work.

Other crazy is going through my mind, but I feel like that's enough for now. I know there are no real questions in there, but I guess I'm looking for opinions or advice or people who have had similar experiences.

I don't know what to think