I am a male... aren't I?

I mean, I like to wear womens underwear from time to time... maybe a skirt or something. I just would never be comfortable enough in my own skin to go in public. The best I can do is wear eyeshadow, nailpolish, and have panties on under my male clothes. If you ask me that takes some kind of guts for a femboy, right? Yet I'm always conflicted with my emotions. Part of me wants to just say screw it and do what I want, but the other half says no, just let everyone fall for the masuline disguise you carry on your face and in your strong walk. Now, I'm not shy, I used to be though.. .even.. anti social at times. Sometimes the past keeps haunting me and the social anxiety to comply with societal norms just pulls me away from who I am as a person. I am.. fairly masculine all around. I tend to do things such as but not limited to; baking, rollerblading, running, drawing, blogging, youtube, etc but even when I'm out in the public I just keep to myself unless the situation calls for me to be social. Now, I do have a masculine side and I am not ashamed of it, I just hate it because guys are always comparing their dick size to one another but I personally just don't care about it. I hate being around guys who brag and those who are so full of themselves they might as well be a walking penis or something. I hope I'm not too graphic for this side of ABDL and I apologise and will remove this post if asked to do so or at least edit it.. What do you guys say about a straight femboy? Thoughts? Ideas? Any helpful advice is appreciated, I will try not to lose my cool like I did in my "Serious post" post.

I am a male... aren't I?