I have been using my fantisies and my phone too much as a crutch

Hey its me again, Last night I think I figured out why I tend to sabotage myself, you see I really have been letting my fantasies effect my life wayyyyyyyyyy to much, which I know I shouldn't but I do, I know it doesn't help in the long run, and also sometimes my inner voice tends to speak of what I like about them in a kind of babyish, kind of mocking tone, and I do admitingly regress every night, which I know its wrong, but still I do it anyway, also I tend to get obsessive with my phone, that I use it every night, when I don't have homework, and play games on it and when I am at McDonald's look up abdl, TG, sissy, Age regression images, captions, which I save as image files and stories from Deviant Art, Sparklestories, and other sites that I download as pdf files, using a website, and weirdly enough, Imagine I was in those shoes, and that I was a little baby, toddler, again, or an LG, and temporary escape from my life, which considering everything It can get insane anyway I really don't know what to do because every time I think I have an awenser and everything seems good, something, someone or some thought comes and ruins it, and I don't want to use abdl or my phone as a crutch but I really don't know where to began in that regard.

I have been using my fantisies and my phone too much as a crutch