I want to stop

I'm really not liking this, but I can't quit. I don't feel sexually liberated. I want to quit. deep down I want to quit. :frown: Why do I do this thing... everytime its the same circle, hopeful change, anxiety for a few days, morph to cravings, purge wonder wtf happened. I can't take this anymore this isn't me. It isn't who I want to be there has to be some way. It's my actions I should be able to do things I like and not do things I don't. so why does this keep happening to me...

If I could just sate these feelings some other way. without diaper sex or baby stuff.

I want to stop